She returned from an arduous journey only to find herself questioning the fabric of reality. She sat and sorted out what was true in the present, what had passed or more so what had NOT come to pass. She let the future be put on hold for the time being, for she had to focus on the PRESENT. The lil time traveler was so excited for the future, but she had so many contemplations dealing with the now. She was having a really hard time with deciphering whether a grand second love was already in the works, or if it was just a speck on the horizon line still? She quieted her mind and allowed her heart to guide her home. She knows whom, but does he? Right now, too? Or perhaps that connection was yet ANOTHER thing she had to sacrifice? She would make her peace with that, should that be true… How can she ask him? She pondered some more on the thoughts slowly walking through her mind. Was it?… was it all just in her mind then? Surely not, right? Perhaps that great of love was all just a dream? That would make more logical sense given all the patterns…She figured with the way the world has treated her…it’d be more highly likely that he probably isn’t even aware of her existence in the present timeline. What a cruel thing to show her such a beautiful possible love, and then after everything….out of reach. Riight. Of course tho.
She saw far and wide, yet somehow, someway, all roads lead to one silly ass dude… but does he like her back? Would he? Has he? Does?
If only she knew for certain… Can’t just one question be answered straight up?! Has she not earned that!?
Just one. Simple question.
Is this connection between he and I REAL?
Her heart sings yes but her mind is like a swirling tornado trying to find an eye to focus on so she doesn’t spin off into the void. WTF is the loudest sound in the storm that is her mind, yet another lives on too, a quiet, almost unheard sound gently requesting; “Help.”
A sound she would never expect anyone else to hear… much less such a beloved dude. Surely he would have different options, probably better suited to him and his life… how would he even know of her anyways? She’s just herself, nothing more, nothing less, she is just. her. always. An adorable street dawggie.
“Where Is My Mind?” -Pixies
It’s struggling with this last piece of the fucking puzzle now🙄 😞I just don’t KNOWW.🧠⚙️
Does it belong to the big picture or is it an extra piece she gathered up along the way?🧩
Perhaps that’s not for HER to decide, but rather for HIM to…💚?