My heart felt so desolate yesterday. Really old and deep wounds bled out profusely without warning. Yet here I am, back again another “morning”🤭 If I were alone I might’ve just let the blood continue to pool for a final time… maybe? It hurt so goddamn much, and I’m no stranger to intense pain. My mind went to an even colder and darker place with no chance or hope of sunshine or even moonlight. Monstrous thoughts resurfaced and bared their teeth at me, but YOU scared THEM away instead for me. I couldn’t stop my own bleeding this time, but someway you could. You caught every falling tear in your hands, and I felt your warmth on the middle of my back the entire night. My demonic side was completely pissed off yet you reigned her back in gently before she caused any damage to the world and others. You told her she wasn’t a scary beast to you, but rather darkly beautiful. For the first time in existence, she’s taking a nap right now because you SHOWED that your words meant everything. Even when I couldn’t pin point where the most blood was gushing out of, you took your time to figure it out properly and made sure another patch wasn’t placed but actual stitches this time. You didn’t give up? That’s new for me. You didn’t seem to mind what so ever that you were covered in a sea of crimson… MY sea. What a turbulent night and you surfed every wave with grace. You’re truly an interesting weirdo to be surfing in a blood ocean under the brilliant moonlight!🩸🧛🏼 When I awoke this “morning” you were already staring at me, monitoring and just patiently waiting for me to open my eyes after all of that. The first thought and statement out of my mouth was your name. Followed by a sweet little smile. Once again you showed me how much you truly love me, and I must’ve sang “I love you” a million times today and it’s only 3:40pm. You made me not only smile but genuinely laugh with my soul afterwards by just being your silly self. I can feel the stitches in my heart now, my head is light and a bit achey, my body feels sore from the pain of yesterday like I have been at war, but I know I am and feel ok. You gently helped me dust the previous night from my bones while stretching the ache from my muscles for me. I can feel the warmth radiating from your arms wrapped around my back always. It makes me smile and almost tickles at the same time. Like a newborn baby, your strong hands support my neck. I feel like I’m on life support today, but I couldn’t be happier than under your gentle care.❤️🩹
