We were thinking about past friends, and how shitty they’ve been to us. Each of us have our own stories, thoughts on it, memories, emotions, but we happened to be talking about MY specific shit tonight. So in this instance, I recalled the relationship with a friend who I went through some really deep trauma with and also some really beautiful shit too. We grew up together, but I couldn’t help but remember some of the not so great things she had done over the years to me. Whether or not she realized it at the time or even now isn’t the point here, it’s really not i promise; no what I mean is that these actions taken by someone I love hurt me to some degree or another whether it was big or small, ya know? So I couldn’t help but feel some hurt, which is valid as fuck, and so I kept her at arms length to be honest…
There is definitely still love there. We grew apart, we were just living such different lives and kind of saw things differently. Which is totally ok. We run around each other when it matters most, and we are able to pick up where we left off as if the passage of time was but a mere whisper. This friend and I have seen some shit but we got through it all, and are now adults together too. We were stupid ass kids and all of a sudden we’re big now. Wtf? Lmao I’d like to say we are still stupid asses just adults… we’re always gonna be big kids tho.🤭 I remember when we used to go to the mall together and walk around. We’d make fun of posers and it was a blast! I remember even further back just right now actually, us walking around turquoise buildings with our little binders held to our chests and us always rolling with laughter in the heat of the California sunrays. Our little side parts, dawg. Lol I remember, we would walk together everywhere. We would even time our pee breaks from class so we could see eachother in the bathroom and chill. We always held eachother tightly, especially when the other needed it most. I so appreciate you for that, brah. If only someone knew what the world would do to those poor girls, man…Yet, we remained calm and comforted eachother every fucking step of the way. Even though, at the end of lunch I’d go one way, and you’d go the other… we’d always turn to look back and smile…somehow my dude, we always find our way back to the other. Ain’t that just so prettyyy? You’re still the Cobain🤘🏼🎸🚬 to my motherfucking Kiedis my dawg! (Now what’s MY line tho?)… I don’t seem to recall MY emojis?😅😆 All good though, man! Ain’t nothing but a chicken wang!🍗 It’s been awhile since we last visited Disney together, the fuck is up with that?😂🏰🎆 We also still have to go see MCR TOGETHER this second time around!🎸🤘🏼✨
Read/listen to “The light behind your eyes” MCR duh!